i told petronilla a story yesterday
when i was younger i walked 45 miles twice a year in derbyshire now acknowledged as my spiritual home. sometimes i was the faster team member, sometimes the slower, sometimes in the middle. i never dropped out, always finished.
sometimes i carried two bags, one from another team member. and it made me faster. leading the way. sometimes i know i was allowed to ldea, to keep me motivated. subtle but not lost on me. led from behind, thanks Sherlock
when the others werent strong enough, they let others carry their bag. but they had to release it
i only ever carried two bags when i was strong enough. never when i wasnt strong enough.